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i need to get things sort out ........will be MIA
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.:edward blogged on 4:33 PM:.
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Guess what later the party only me and wan go haiz...
Actually i not looking forward to the party ..
Haiz.....
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.:edward blogged on 2:09 AM:.
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.:edward blogged on 7:05 PM:.
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i am feeling damn fucked up .. at first i nt gg for the party this fri but she insisted me to go but when i had second thoughts on going she seem very disappointed in me and keep asking me what the problem haiz...but i don dare to tell her the problems. The problem is ah the purpose of me going to this party is becoz of her i mean we two can sit down chit chatting all but then she bringing at least of her 10 frenz and she will be with the organiser. wah damn sian ji pua after i heard it which mean i can't get close to her la and that the problem which i don dare to tell her u see.....if i nv go mean she will be disappointed but if i go scully like newsroom like that she just throw us there which i think most likely
Haiz.......it going be a sian party for me i guess
We shall see on that day
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.:edward blogged on 2:22 AM:.
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I promise to all my friends, to God no matter how i flirt around , how i sweet talk to girls or what , Jue will be the one and only person to occupy my heart. If Jue had someone in mind, i am willing to back off. If you like a person and you wana her to be happy, you should let her do whatever thing she want.But she will be always in my mind.
Omg I miss her terribly haha....
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.:edward blogged on 1:33 AM:.
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After months of MIA , I am back with a mixed feeling . i don't know how should I descibe myself or what. i think the word that use to describe myself should be stupid idot or what. Ok let's start this whole story which happen months ago.
Me and wan were having attachment and we were slacking so we went to friendster to find some babes and exchanging babes picture and contact . Then i found this girl her picture was she and a friend together so i though she the one on the right so i got her contact her msn. But in the end i found out that she the one on the left . i was thinking "Oh Shit !!!!" so i though never mind la just continue chatting with her on msn lor since there's no harm about it. btw her name is jue. Soon we click and chat alot , soon she invited me to her cj party (btw she study in cj) so i agree to go la and she promise to dance with me and drink with me. But i don expect much from her la because she is one of the co-organiser so she wouldn't have time for me so it's okie to me i don mind. So that day i went to her party with wan and my classmates. And also that the very first time i met her. I had already pre-order a bottle of chivas in advance so we could get table but she got the wrong bottle instead of chivas she got me jim beam and it cost 18 bucks cheaper so i don mind and i also never get the change. My classmates were enjoying themselve i just down there had a drink , i feel kinda outcast. But it doesn't matter to me since my classmates they all enjoy. Then Jue was dancing with a group of guys and was like surrounded by 7-8 guys. I see already i feel kinda fuck up with thousand knives piercing through my heart. I had never had this feeling before I ask my frenz why i feel like this he say i had fallen for her which i feel i had fallen for her too. So we continue to chat every night until yesterday i kinda scold her (i shall not elaborate why ) . After a while i knew it was my fault so i sms her but she never reply so yesterday night i call her .
me : "i'm sorry about juz now"
she(with noisy background): "nono i am not angry with you, i am busy now call you back later "
me : "Since you are busy i shalln't disturb you "
she : "bye"
what does this mean is she still angry or piss off with me ????? Just now she was online i did apologise to her again coz i feel kinda guilty but she say "forget about it manx it's alrite" so we chat some other thing like ask her wana go to momo on 22 sept but she say her friend had bash the next day at indocine. then she went offline. Tough we had conversation but i feel the chemistry had lost. What should i do ??? maybe i should leave her alone. i try to forget her and i just couldn't do it
i say to her before i would bring her to dinner in east coast by the sea but i guess it's gone now
i even trying to save up money to go equinox which is on the 72rd storey of swissotel the stamford and it's now gone
*all gone !!!*
* sob*
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.:edward blogged on 8:06 PM:.
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