::I am completely drained ........ this week gonna is a fuck up week for me first i kana food poisoning after eating the steamboat last sat and because of that i was on MC on monday and tuesday. Wed when i went back to work i found out the program i do was completely screw up and i don't know what has happen lor plus somemore because i was on MC on monday and tuesday so i had to do the stuffs which was suppose to be done on monday and tuesday so i was freaking busy until i had no time for lunch , had to work OT. Yesterday was the same old thing doing stuff which was suppose to do on monday and tuesday ,trying damn hard to fix my program and doing the rest of my program as the deadline was just next Monday, working OT till 10 plus , back home ard 11 and went to sleep straight away without taking my dinner as i was damn freaking tired .
Haiz ... i think today the same old thing again working OT, fixing my program and now this is the only time i am free as i had to wait for my boss for some help with my program.
I was feeling damn guilty at not helping out or doing anything in the sport camp and cca fiesta for my club while my friends out there was busy preparing the stuff and helping out haiz.....i think the only day i am free doing my club's stuffs will be on saturday and probably sunday haiz.....i think the TM had chosen me as the wrong person to become council ????? or do i make the correct decision ????::

.:edward blogged on 11:01 AM:.
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::I been thinking whether i should continue my councilship or nt. After CTC i feel that i am fucking weak during 5Bx can get knock out unlike other people they endure all the way but me ????????.............................. JS camp can do it but not for CTC when JS 5bx should be more tougher than CTC .what wrong with you .....You can survive JS but you cannot survive CTC what the fuck !!!!!

I think I am a fucking useless loser !!!!::

.:edward blogged on 8:42 AM:.
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